The Nights

My days are long and troublesome
But the nights are longer
Slow torturous things that rob me of sleep
Even as I close my eyes
My thoughts wander to you
And I wonder what it would be like
To having my emptiness filled with
Your essence
It stirs my imagination
Stroking the flames of a fire
That has so long lain unattended
Smothered in the depths of my soul
The chemistry is there but I keep my distance
Even as we continue this elaborate dance
Each of us waits for the other to blink
To cross the invisible line
To speak the unspoken words that hang between us
Like sweet fruit ready to fall

My restraint amazes me
I’ve never wanted someone this much
For this long
Sometimes you are so close I can feel
Your breath on my cheek
And I know the light in your eyes is for me
The brilliance of which bears silent witness
To the feelings you try so desperately to hide
I saw them only once
When we were finally alone
There was no invisible wall
No attempt to conceal or disengage
Only the emotion of your longing
Naked and raw as it played across your face
Tearing at your composure like some hungry beast
For once you did not fight it
Instead you let it float across the distance
To touch my soul

I have seen you watch me and smile
When you think I am unaware
I have seen you struggle for control
Of your innermost desires
That quiet wanting that wears you down
Your poise would be lost
By my passion made manifest
And by the touch that you secretly crave
The taste of a thousand kisses
Would never be enough to sate
The thing that is my desire for you
You are used to the unexpected from me
And yet, I think, even this would surprise you